Alyosha,
I have been thinking about this thead which, like many before it, is heading back down into oblivion where it had long been. It was some person who just showed up (long-since-dead I think his name was) who posted to it and brought it to my attention, and of course I was pleasantly surprised to read your comments and the discussion about Dostoevsky, a writer who I value a great deal. I have been thinking for a few days of how to respond, and flipping back and forth between a simple directness of speech, or if it were 'better' to keep up with the ironical shtick. When one has 'enemies' as I do, and when one is identified as a sort of spiritual slug along the gutterways of mediocrity, it does open up the arena to a certain amount of irony, but doing that one gets locked into a role and it is hard to break out of. Hard but not impossible. One of the reasons why I have played, and still do play, with identity is because I see people here getting locked into their own forum-personality creations. It is more fun and more creative to have the luxury and freedom of moving back and forth through different kinds of solidities of personality, while always of course remaining essentially the same person, or maybe even being more of the person one really is.
To cut to the chase: here, it seems, the predominating definition of spiritual life---'Ultimate Reality and the path to Enlightenment'---is a very peculiar and (I think) quite
non-rational path of harsh rationality, and
all that pushed through a mill of neo-Buddhism where Buddhist personages are fetishized in a peculiar and I think unwholesome way. What comes out the other end is a unique product that only a very few people---an odd bunch of rather strange cats and a few even odder women---can relate to. Like old Weininger, who had grand visions of his offering to society but has fallen by the wayside, I have the impression that the QRS trip, will suffer a similar fate. I
do represent another voice, another way of seeing and looking, and the value here for me has only been to test my own views. Some people appreciate it (ignorant, deluded loosers all) and others don't (ultra-wise, ultra-committed voyagers toward the 'infinite'). You get the picture.
The thing that I wanted to mention, and I think it is a way to understand another *sort* of spirituality, another way of living and practicing spirituality, is bound to some ideas that as far as I can tell
NEVER appear in this forum, at least on the part of most who post here, or keep posting here. My essential orientation, though I lived in India with my parents at an impressionable age, grew up in California in a community of people surrounding Esalen Institute, and have been around so many influences of an Eastern sort, is to now be interested in the Judeo-Christian 'revelation'. I asked if you thought that 'enlightenment' was really a category, and I am inclined mostly to reject it as a destructive idea, and part of a strange idolatry. It tends to lead to those distortions more than anything else, and perhaps this is especially true in the West where these ideas have been imported. It is a rather wide and broud conversation to talk about
all that...It is hard of course to talk about it here because the idea(s) is/are almost violently resisted, which is understandable to some degree. The reason for this, I feel, moves into 'unconscious' psychological territory but that is an assertion hard to present, for justified reasons.
Anyway, there is an 'idea' or a 'fact' or a 'process' that is quite central to both Judaism and Christianity and it stems from an understanding of God as a personal force or consciousness 'operating' in nature, in history, in psychology, and in personality. It is the notion of the Holy Spirit or the Sacred Spirit or
paraclete, which I see as the same or similar to the Jewish concept of
shekinah. These 'things' are 'things' that have been relevant in my own life from an early age and are part of an order of experience I am not really inclined to 'discuss' or debate. But it leads to an idea that is really what I was interested in bringing up: the baptism of fire. That is to say, when one has an experience with a 'spirit' that is a 'personality' and that is charged with 'meaning', and when your own personality stands in a peculiar sort of relationship to that where one is not the boss, one is not in control, and where one comes under the influence of something 'greater'. I am fairly certain that my essential differences here on GF (obviously) stem from all the 'beliefs' that I would have that would support and uphold these 'views' which are (to the Wise) deluded, regressive, etc. So, I think that what Dosteovsky is really dealing on is, in the essence, the manifestation of the
Spirit in the souls and lives of his protagnonists. It is a way of 'working' with 'the spirit' in a very intense and unique way, and it is a way of understanding how this spirit penetrates into the very inner dimensions of man. It is both funny and a little tragic that David interprets all this as adolescent and of no value. But when you think about it, it is consistent with the sum total of their 'beliefs that are not beliefs but stone-cold facts about Reality'.
The other idea, and I am certain it has a great deal of relation to Dostoevsky is the Christian idea of 'the body of Christ'. Obviously, if one were really to take it all to heart (and you mentioned De Profundis which, in one part, really drives this message home), one might understand that we are all deeply united, that our fates are intertwined, and in that peculiar sense (if one accepts or even entertains the Jesusonian message as possible):
- If we may trust Like here, Jesus at the Last Supper confirmed to his disciples what was already clear to them, that they were no lomger free to go their own ways, but voluntarily bound to the other and to him both now and in the future in what Paul was to call the 'body of Christ'. ---A.J.B. Higgins in The Lord's Supper in the New Testament.
It seems to me that, almost beyond any doubt, Dostoevsky is operating under the influence of such exalted ideas, and demonstrating, and further revealing, just how bound up we all are, and the obligation we have to serve one another. This idea of service is something no one here ever mentions, ever. More than anything, if one were really to be honest, what certain people do is to
tear apart, themselves and others. This is a
value here. In this sense, as someone first said to me when I joined, 'the place is dysfunctional'.
So, it is in exactly the same spirit---the spirit of service---that someone could say: 'I stick by the QRS and their oddly deluded trip because I see that in significant ways they are just lost kids who have had ripped out from under them a sense of how they are
connected to one another. Indeed, there is no defensible and rational means to even
DESCRIBE connectedness in the universe of neurosis they chant back and forth between themselves like a weird mantra, and which
captures them, holds them, impels them; not as free, conscious beings but as victims of ideas that control and dominate them'.
I also think that Violeta Parra in her song of coming back to a central part of herself, a part of a younger, unjaded and innocent person, is very related to the idea of the sacred and the holy, as well as to interconnectedness between all of us. In that sense, her song is one about a visitation of the Holy Spirit. If one has ears, one hears. If one doesn't, one doesn't. I fear that this might sound like some sort of Christian lecture (?) but that is not at all where I am coming from. My personal feeling is that the 'core' of the Judeo-Christian revelation and message is immensely relevant and powerful, but we have to interpret it anew and make it real. Dosteovsky is an example of a man who did this in a profound way.