Alex,
I would not have used the word solid as the first adjective to describe mystics. Well, what is a mystic? It seems to me it's a person with intuitive contact with the divine, universal knowledge, and who has experiences and understandings arising from such.
I feel that my ideas about things are rapidly going through changes. I am becoming something I wasn't even one year ago. It is kind of strange but I also really like it.
Yes, you're a kindred spirit alright. I think this constant change is OK, too. More than OK, it is as it should and must be. Perhaps you think of a mystic as belonging to a particular religion, and being a mystic within it. Solid.
But, times they are a changing. My own mentor, the closest I'll ever get to a guru, someone I can't help feeling some kind of love for, is a monk whose pen lit my soul on fire and from then till now, having drunk the waters of life, it has indeed been such an ever-changing, yet somehow sensible journey. What I call, living in the bridal chamber of the Lord. (New Testament stuff, also one from the gospel of Thomas.)
Perhaps, had I lived in his era, which in fact he died around 1930, but he might as well never have left the 1800's in which he was born for he lived a life of monastic isolation -- had I lived in his era I too, might have become a saint.
But the problem is, we have a lot of information now, and I dug into it, and I had a crisis of faith, and I had to choose the real over the silly idea of a true religion. I could not remain in a state of contented bliss, digging deeper into the reservoirs of my religion.
So he was a mystic, and I am a mystic but I have achieved a level of freedom that he only hinted at, and its not that I'm better. He was better. But he lived in another era, and he lived a very different life with different options possible for him.
Alex it's a bit new age, but you must see a little clearer the difference between religion and true spirituality, which is dogma-free, and does not depend upon stories, and is essentially mystical, relying on intuition and a guiding principle of not accepting negativity.
I agree that enlightenment is a term meant differently by different people. I define it as a breakthrough in perception beyond duality, and there is something about waking up to whom one really is - there being only one being in this universe. Waking up just like you do in the morning when your dream self suddenly says, "Oh, I was dreaming, and now I am awake."
This might be translated as no self, but I also find it problematic, if only because it isn't true, can't be true. But in some sense it is true. Having not really experienced it, I can't be expected to fully understand it. But one guy calls it the 'expanded self.' And I immediately liked it because the little ego self that seemed so important, so encased and isolated, so prone to fear, is no longer all that one feels oneself to be, or its boundaries expand so that it is, you know, like the incredible lightness of being.
The enlightened obviously still have a self, an ego, a name, they feel their body, etc. But it is not all that exists in their purview. It has been likened to lucid dreaming. Have you had any? There you are in your dream with your dream self, suddenly aware that it is you dreaming, and the dream is fun and silly, with no possible fear in it.
Andrew Cohen, by the way, is a guy who has tried to have a serious dialogue about women and spirituality.
As far as on the ground values, I think that is similar to my view that the enlightened values had better be compatible with life. Like one of the sycophants said, "real men don't breed."
Oh yeah? Well your values are irrelevant then, aren't they?
because one has caught a glimmer of one's personal truth, resulting from a personal relationship with God. My understanding of this 'enlightened state' is therefor essentially personalist, insofar as everyone can and should forge a connection with his or her 'personal God', and then you make your own interpretation, and you live it out in your life.
This I would describe as mystical. The question of a personal God is one I struggle with. Logically, it has problems, yet that is the experience. I suspect that it is personal in a different way than I understand, yet.
Do you actually see yourself as a 'masculine woman'?
Yes, always have. Not in a frightening way. The men in my life seem not to have detected it. On the other hand, it's perhaps the main reason they have appreciated me.
The reasons I do so consider myself is that I am quite rational, think for myself and have a strong inner life and identity, and have always been more at home in conversation with men than women, they are more interesting to me. I would have preferred to have been a man, but I have so long since made my peace with it that I hardly remember.
Some women here, such as Marsha (long gone) were considered masculine because of a certain bitchy and aggressive attitude, and because they were parrots and sycophants, mostly for David, who seems to have his little harem (I'm sorry to confess I'm included but not for the same reasons - I love David because I sense he loves God, a trait I can't resist, albeit he denies it). They also loudly proclaimed themselves as men, whereas I spent many years overcoming same!
But did they think alone, did they have developed ideas of their own, did they communicate well, were they interesting at all or boring, and were they excessively emotional and self absorbed in an irrational way? No, no, no, no, and yes.
And I don't say I am masculine to compliment myself, as others here would, it's just a fact I've lived with all my life. Or perhaps I am fully psychologically hermaphroditic - I love men and sex and babies, after all!
But I would not say I am extremely masculine. I don't do well with all the new technological toys.
Truth is a pathless land.