Diebert: As I wrote earlier to you, at you: "...even the moments one can feel pretty complete". Or name it pure or whole, remove the doubt, bit by bit, but chances are you're still embracing a bias, just one that overrules all others. It's the mechanism of the religious, of worship, to think one has arrived at some absolute self (or Other).
Diebert, I remain biased, but am not embracing a bias. And despite all the conversations we have shared, it makes me smile that you believe that I am religious and that I worship anyone or anything. Especially that I believe I have 'arrived at some absolute self (or Other)'. Every one of my posts is directed toward the cutting away of such nonsense! It is my observation that this nonsensical belief that I have a religious or worshiping mentality is as result of the idle conjecturing of a few on this board, conjecturing that is in no way related to the true essence of who I am. Apparently, the true essence of Pam is not being understood, and rather than question sincerely this essence if understanding is desired, or leave it alone if understanding is not desired, it is deemed to be more entertaining to assume and to speculate and to fantasize and to curse. So be it. Eventually the soul wearies of such intellectual idleness and instead, begins to listen to its conscience of "I am" integrity.
Diebert: But until you can see it's not you being pure and complete, nor some higher self, but the world, your past, your pain, all that's happening before you included, only then a taste of forgiveness in the true sense can be known.
Diebert, I also do not identify with a higher self. I am the thoughts I think, no more, no less. The thoughts I think are whole and complete according to the activity of my conscious awareness. If I am taking thought to be personal, then that is what I will experience, whole, complete, perfect and pure: the ups, the downs, the highs, the lows, the dualities of my belief that I am a 'person.' If I do not take thought to be personal, then that is what I will experience, whole, complete, perfect and pure: no ups, no downs, no highs, no lows, no awareness of dualism, my life as my unconditional I am of Pure Thought. I experience both ways of thinking, but have the wisdom of realization that when I am being obedient to my impersonal "I", my personal "I" is 'not there.'
Diebert: Jufa and Pam, the discussion has moved now beyond it's expiry date. There are issues and questions left perhaps still not addressed but I keep missing a shared foundation of some clarity, hard-won insights and basic reasoning ability. Thanks for understanding.
Reasoning, or perhaps more succinctly, analysis, is indeed present in my posts; if it is not being realized, hey, no problem. That is on me to be clearer of my delivery. Thank you as well for understanding and for your strength of presence in this thread.