compensating mechanism often demand an antithesis to balance or fulfil, as with character and temperament - an ideal union being the masculine woman and the effeminate man.And if there is one thing I hate more than anything, it can be summed up as compromise. I fucking HATE compromise. So, please, heavenly father who art in heaven, give me the strength I need to conquer my fear, to throw off this shadow, to be naked before the world. Because I'm starting to get really sick of this shit.
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'he', speaks truthfully and sayeth, I know NOT and I speak truthfully - I know not my omniscience. hear now, the 'saviours' with their unbelievable assertions, tiresome but with pretensions of significance, tensed up and transported with rage declarations that is made comprehending towards others' states as if no supporting evidence were necessary: "Heaven and Eternal Life" in exchange for belief in "the atonement of the blood".. or be damned! such a 'wishful belly-full' has never worked yet, or any other absurdities of unjustable acts of readiness to believe readily.
therefore pray not direct to God, but to your own damned self - by sacrifice and service to man, it is the only correct manner of prayer; and none so poor that they can not so give. all other forms of prayer are abortive, merely a ritualistic appreciation. the only answering forces of good that I know originate from man, and the only force of evil that I know radiates from man also. if the evil thoughts of man were able to break through our protective auras... human life would end.
all prayer dissipates without an intermediary or carrier. gods, soul, and the psycho-substantive, seem to respond only through the mind by in-direction, and hetero-suggestion: this is the secret way through many barriers. the mind is potent, still the deadliest weapon. or the reverse.
I ask: what greater gift could any God give us? only ourselves, as free individuals.. not so much to hate and love as to excel ourselves.
