Well, this is an example of her "output". If someone would like to decipher it for me they're most welcome to try:
Bubba Free John:
Fear leads us to obsessive concentration, one-pointedness, thought, knowledge, inwardness, belief, illusions of certainty, self, and ritual repetitions of experience.
Freedom allows us to expand, to feel without qualifications, to communicate with all conditions and beings, and to commune with the eternal and present paradox that is reality prior to all qualifications.
Finding ourselves alive in an independent form, vulnerable and subject to death, we become frightened, afraid of extinction. This fearful mood motivates us in all that we hope, believe, and do. We seek the consolation that we will continue in the face of the threat of death. This urge for consolation enters into all of our considerations. Any belief in our own continuation after death is created in our need to be consoled. Thus, if we are to discover the destiny beyond physical death, we must first of all become free of the demand for consolation that causes us merely to believe rather than to inspect, to understand and be free. Otherwise, we could never be certain that we are not just believing because we are afraid. We cannot be certain of our own spiritual and religious hopes and beliefs unless we are completely free of the need to be consoled. We might observe something about life that implies continuation after death, but we cannot be certain so long as we feel compelled to believe it as a consolation for our fear.
Until you yourself become free of fear altogether, free of the need to be consoled, you have no way of knowing with any certainty whether or not you will survive death. If you consider the possible future, you notice that, to a large degree, fear determines what you choose to believe or observe about survival after death. Iow, you cannot feel certain about survival - or anything - until you are free of this fear.
Until there is this freedom form fear there is no knowledge whatsoever. There are just ideas, hopes and beliefs, all of which are very superficial, because fear is stronger. We are not really consoled even then.
Fear is projected on all our experience, but it not itself inherent in all things. It is a characteristic of our usual condition that we project on all our experience and circumstance. Examine it as our experience itself and see if fear is inherent in all tings or if it is a characteristic of your own consciousness that is unnecessary. There is no information that can liberate you from it, because our whole involvement with information and knowledge is secondary to fear itself. Thus, freedom from fear is based on a fundamental liberation that occurs prior to external causes. You cannot even talk about the Divine in any sense that is fully satisfying, happy and free until you are already free of fear. Belief in God is not the way to become free of fear. It is merely consolation. If we are to enjoy communion with God, we must be free of fear already.
Devotee: I've been sitting here feeling and observing fear, and something about it seems to be just the opposite and your admonition is to radiate. Fear is just the opposite, the collapse of that forceful presence. It seems to be simply a contraction of it.
Bubba: Can you radiate fear? If you bring the quality of radiance to the position of fear, can you continue to fear?
You are in touch with this fear. It is not even that you are afraid, because being afraid implies that you are responding to something objective. You are fear itself. If you were aware of fear (and you have no choice, no option, because you *are* fear), and if you were to radiate in that position of fear, what would happened to fear?
Devotee: Well, you would think it would be obviated, but...
Bubba: Don't think about it, do it! Radiate from this position of fear. Completely experience it. Feel as fear - which is quite natural. You do not have to get hysterical to do it. It is already there, you see. Well, radiate from this position. Okay, what happens to fear, what is it when you radiate?
Devotee: It doesn't seem to have any negative force.
Bubba: When you radiate from the position of fear and fear is transformed, how would you describe yourself then? What is the quality of the feeling? If you radiated from your ordinary position of fear without ceasing, what would it be? Do it. Is it still fear?
Devotee: No, it's not.
Bubba: What is it?
Devotee: It is love.
Bubba: Does it have an object?
Devotee: No, it doesn't necessarily have a particular object.
Bubba: Love can be projected onto objects, just as fear may, but it has no object. It is itself a fundamental condition, *the* fundamental condition of existence, just as fear in the other case is the fundamental condition of your existence.
Devotee: That principle does not become operative when love is operative. So love obviates fear in that moment.
Bubba: What is most fundamental, love or fear?
Devotee: It seems that fear is not exactly a superimposition on love, but a disturbance of love. And it seems that love is first and fundamental.
Bubba: Yes, fear is secondary to love. Fear is a kind of distortion of the original form, the original condition. It is unnecessary. So we become free of fear by abiding in our native or prior condition, not imploded, not engaged in the reaction that is fear. Thus, rather than projecting that contraction on all our experience, we exist as love, effortless, unobstructed feeling. Usually all our effort is a response to the seen of fear and the aggravation of experience. But from the point of view of love, which is not fear, we are no longer in need of consolation. We may simply be satisfied in our ordinary relations then. And we may be free to observe the conditions of existence, of experience, of knowledge.
Now, it is a different matter altogether from assuming that you can become free of fear merely by thinking about it, by analyzing it. People like to think that, in a moment of reflection, they can become completely free of fear. One well-known spiritual philosopher continually tells his casual audience that they can become completely free of fear in the course of an evening's consideration. You are simply to sit there and think about it, and then when you leave the auditorium you will be completely free of fear! You like this idea of going inside, working on yourselves, being philosophical, or thinking things through, and believing that such activity is supposed to be or lead to salvation and happiness and freedom. But the spiritual demand is a moral demand. There is no freedom until subjectivity or mere consideration becomes an incident, new adaptation, a new practice of life. Literal love, which feels beyond all the limiting forces of experience, is the highest and most necessary philosophical activity or process. In that case you observe that you are already completely free of fear, whereas mere thought is self-mediation and a strategy in dilemma, fear and lovelessness.
You cannot become free of fear through mere philosophical or subjective reflection. That is total nonsense. Fear arises in our contraction, our withdrawal from the pattern of our relations, our separation from infinity. The spiritual demand is not "Think about all of that and then it will not be true, and you will not have to be afraid anymore." The spiritual communication is a demand for a moral transformation of your whole existence, your whole life. You cannot be free of fear just by sitting here thinking about it or reading a book. You must consider the mechanism of fear, yes, but then you must go and serve and work and love and be transformed, newly adapted. You must live a life in which fear, the mood of contraction, made obsolete by love, which is feeling-attention to infinity. No discussion in a hall or from an armchair completely relieves you of fear or of any problems you might have in life, including your compulsive thinking mind. All of these things that you are suffering are expressions of one affair, this contraction of the whole body-being, the contraction of feeling-attention, the collapse on oneself. That is the whole matter. And to be free of it we must begin to live differently. Simply to think about and consider freedom may make it sound good here and now, but that subjective activity does not change anything fundamentally. Even in that case, you are still everything that your past adaptation makes you.
So whatever is wrong with anybody, whatever is troubling you, it is a matter of whether you "love or not". The things that are wrong with you are expressions of your contraction of feeling-attention. When you are feeling good, it is because you are not exercising this recoil so profoundly as when you are feeling bad. But to get rid of the recoil a little bit is not sufficient. That is not spiritual life. That might be sufficient to improve your ordinary middle-class life, but it is not sufficient for true spiritual realization, happiness altogether, which is a profoundly creative process.
The fundamental principle of our existence is to persist as love, as radiance prior to fear. Love is the fundamental condition. Everything else is secondary to it, mere experience to be met either by fear or love, by contracting upon ourselves or radiating in all relations to infinity. As long as we are not love, then every moment is a problem, a dilemma, in which we try to manipulate the circumstances of experience in order to console ourselves. But all experience is distorted, all our relations are corrupted, everything fails to satisfy. Thus, we look for beliefs of all kinds, because we are afraid, unsatisfied, and unconsoled.
You cannot truly enter into spiritual life in order to be consoled, to be relieved of fear. But that is exactly why the usual man engages spiritual practice, in order to attain the goal of bliss, or release from fear, or immortality. The search for happiness is NOT the position from which to enter truly into spiritual life. You must approach God as a devotee, already blissful, already free of fear, already alive as love. Therefore, come to me when you are already happy.
This is the secret of spiritual life: Love is God-Communion, or freedom from fear. The inherent disposition of radiance is God-Communion, presently God-Communion, in this moment. No objective experience, no vision, no esoteric structure or condition of any kind is God-Realization, nor does any experience or condition add to this Communion. The path itself is to be love, to be unobstructed feeling attention, to persist in love under all conditions, and thereby transform the conditions of existence from that point of view. If we abide in that communion, then all the conditions and possibilities of existence are a great display of God that will always be benign. We need not be concerned, we need not acquire knowledge in order to be free of it all. IN fact, we are not in a position to know what anything is. Our position is ignorance, or god-communion, love itself, to exist without obstruction in the continuous instant of infinity that is in every moment.
This then, is the ultimate consideration of spiritual life. It always has been. In Krishna's argument to Arjuna in the Bhagavad Gita, Krishna reveals all the esoteric matters to his devotee, and then he tells him that they are not the truth. He brings Arjuna to the point of understanding the fruitlessness of the whole affair of ordinary life and spiritual seeking. And then he communicates to him the essential process, which is not strategically to turn the ego, or the contraction that is fear towards various kinds of subjective and objective conditions and methods. On the contrary, Krishna tells Arjuna to "abandon all dharmas", not only all duties, but all teachings, all philosophies, all supports, all methods, all approaches, al meditation and contemplation, all esotericism, all consolations in the world, al ways of trying to be fulfilled in the world, all ways of trying to examine the conditions of life in order to feel that they are all right - and he tells him, "Turn to Me. Abandon all supports and turn to Me. Remember Me. Meditate on Me. Remember Me and fight". Go back, change everything entirely on the basis of this Remembrance, this Communion with Me. Not "Me" in terms of the independent man Krishna, or even his subtle form as it might appear in visions or dreams, but the "Me" that is God, alive as Love itself.
Love is God-communion, and that is the whole path. Live it under all conditions. If you live by that principle, you change everything. Your life will be a manifestation of God-communion then. That is the simple affair. That is all there is to it.
Jesus said the same thing very plainly. When people asked him casually, he would tell them the whole way right there in a moment - love God and be love in all your relations. That is it. There is nothing else to do. There is nothing else to realize. That is it. There is not a single experience that will add to it. That is the whole realization. It is the whole way. God is not at the end of it, but "the Father and I are one." This is not just true of Jesus, it is true of everyone. It is the Truth of everything.
You must live from the point of view of that Truth. Such a life is Divine. The Divine life is not an effort toward the realization of truth. It is to live ALREADY in Truth. It is the principle of life. I do not know how to make it any more plain!
